20 May 2010

Audra Mae: "The River"



"The River"


Found at skreemr.org


this track so worked for me the other night.
as usual, i was sitting in my car.
and it made a lot of sense.

...

I've done a bad thing it's okay
I'm going down to the river today
And the river's gonna wash my sins away
Til I'm born again tomorrow
Oh to get over my head
Make me forget my sorrow

I'm going down to the river alone
Don't tell mama and daddy I'm gone
And if they cry when I don't come home
Just lie and tell them I'm funnin'
Water get out of my eyes
Into the river wide I'm runnin'

And I can't swim
But it's alright
'Cause all my sin would drag me down even if I could
And if it weren't for him and the love that night
I'd be living for the light like a good girl should
'Cause a good girl should

This old town'll have my skin
I can't speak the trouble I'm in
So if I don't come back again
Go lie beneath the willow
'Cause where I carved my name
Is where my soul will remain
And I'll still know

Lord, and I can't swim
But it's alright
'Cause all my sin would drag me down even if I could
And if it weren't for him and the love that night
I'd be living for the light like a good girl should
'Cause a good girl should

When I meet the Lord so kind
I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind
And I'll tell him I wanna know why oh why
When he's so damn forgivin'
My daddy won't look in my eyes
Mama knows the lies I'm living

Oh, I can't swim
But it's alright
'Cause all my sin would drag me down even if I could
And if it weren't for him and the love that night
I'd be living for the light like a good girl should
'Cause a good girl should

...

sex and religion and love and such.
what a mess.

i was about to write that not being religious
makes freelurving much simpler pour moi,
but it doesn't. i'm not changing my nonreligiousness,
just letting my mind meander through the pews
momentarily.

i'm still plagued by feelings of guilt and regret,
the way any god fearing person should be, but
eventually am able to sort them out with the
party(ies) involved, rather than talking to god about it.
and after the sorting out takes place, i may still be hard
on myself about whatever may have happened, but am
typically able to walk away with a huge smile
on my face and am much more at ease.

like i said. sex, love, and religion... a mess.
(if that threesome offends anyone reading,
you should stay away from threesomes all together)

audra mae's website
download "the river" (or buy it)

and, a shout out to philly's 88.5 FM
for playing this song while i was driving to work
last fall... otherwise i don't think i'd be listening
to audra mae.

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