The Flood: "Sweet Janeen"

O, my unlucky stars
They are aligning in the shape of a guitar
But no one wants to hear me sing
So I think I'm gonna have to starve
Damn all the money lending
Notes are bending somewhere
Soft and sweet
I'm gonna find 'em girl, and if you wanna come
I can't promise anything
But I know you always wanted to learn to sing

CHORUS
Oh my darling, sweet Janeen
Pack up your trunk and come with me
I'm just a loser, sweet Janeen
I just wanna hear the guitar ring

Baby, what's the goddamn point of toiling
When I've got these melodies?
Already shot my soul into these lines
Now I've barely got the strength to breathe
Can't watch the brilliant rays through a windowpane
I'm gonna open it wide
And if you do the same I'm gonna meet you, girl
Down where the river bends tonight
Cuz I don't want no other life

CHORUS

I know you think it's cool
All my books and my words, so lush and true
But I could never be your only one
Unless you're boring too
I've got this crazy dream, but I just need some peace
Are you gonna stick with me
Through all the silent days under my stony gaze
Right now
You've gotta tell me

CHORUS

...

can't really help it.
heart aches a little every time.

i tend to overshare (yes, one word),
but that's all i've got on this one.

the flood's website
download "sweet janeen"

another bettye lavette moment...

so, you know those bettye lavette moments
that i have mentioned more than once?
well, this one just hit me yesterday while
listening to her on youtube. it's so
strange how since day one on this blog business
she has somehow crept up on a regular basis.

...

here me now. ooo girl!
ohhh now now. ooo now.

when you give more than you get
you're in danger
you might find out you're lovin' a total stranger...

danger! heartbreak's dead ahead...

...

not that i've fallen in love
with a total stranger...
not that i know of at least.
but i have definitely been in that
give more than you get situation.
it always ends with my crush reminding
me why they're called a crush.

have a friend in need of a little
nudge, a gentle reminder, that they
should watch out, that the person they
are lurving now isn't worth lurving
tomorrow? throw this on a mix cd
and nonchalantly play it while you're
in the car with them. music is a powerful
thing, bettye lavette may be what you
need to get your point across.

[[and, if for any reason you or a friend
is in legitimate danger, like not just
heartbreak... click here for more info]]

Solander: "Looking for Gold"

how come you're so cold
speaking is only when told to
i wasn't looking for gold
i was looking for you

i wasn't looking for gold,
but i was looking for you girl
i wasn't looking for gold,
but i was looking for you girl

how come you're always in bed
sleeping is only when scheduled
i was not joking
i was trying to get you involved

i wasn't trying to fool you
i was trying to be the one you want
[6x]

...

oh to be misunderstood.
i don't know how many times
what i was saying has been so
completely misconstrued in
freelurving situations.

i'm not going to pretend i know
what solander is saying in this song,
but i will tell you a little story
about a misunderstood boy and a mix cd.

i had my wisdom teeth removed one summer.
i was home alone and in a lot of pain.
luckily you lived right up the street
and were there to hang out and watch me
eat jello on my couch and nag me for
my painkillers i refused to share.
you made me a mix cd and called it
"donde esta tus dientes" for my moment.

i listened to that cd in the car
a few days later, and immediately had this
feeling you were trying to tell me something.
instead of listening to my gut reaction,
which malcolm gladwell tries to tell us to
do in his book blink... i shrugged it off and
thought, no, we're just friends, he wouldn't.

well you did, and you had wanted to
for a long time. i didn't know until it was
too late and you exploded. we haven't talked
in ages. everything turned awkward, too many tears,
too many misunderstood moments, too much.

you were just trying to be the one i wanted.
and i'm sorry. i was blinded by my love of us
as friends, the boy and girl next door,
inseparable and easy. i misunderstood.

solander's website
download looking for gold

Norman Greenbaum: "Marcy"

up by request,
so enjoy!

...

are you shy
are you afraid
marcy knows you love her

if you're shy she will lead the way
marcy knows you love her

marcy knows that she's taking a chance
kissing you like she is
kissing you like she is
but it's the only way to spark romance in you

you didn't try, didn't try
are you shy
are you afraid
marcy knows you love her

if you're shy she will lead the way
marcy knows you love her

marcy knows she can no longer wait
you did not make a move
and now it's late
you did not make a move
and now it's late

you didn't try you, didn't try
are you shy, are you afraid
marcy knows you love her
if you're shy she will lead the way

...

"it meant a lot to me
when I heard the lyrics,
they were basically
about my life"

said by you know who you are...

this is the perfect song
for any of the boys who often
find themselves wondering
why they are always the best friend,
or the little brother,
and not the boyfriend.
make your move boys.

(maybe?) norman greenbaum's website
(closest thing to) norman greenbaum's website
download marcy

Dirty Projectors: "Depression"

disclaimer: not one of the usual in love,
peppy, dancey, freelurving picks.
but everything can't be perfect all
the time, so sometimes you need
one like this.

...

Right here
All by myself
I ain't got nobody else
The situation
The situation is bleeding me there's no relief

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

I ain't got no friends to call my own
I just sit there all alone
There's no girls, there's no girls, there's no girls
that wanna touch me, get away I don't need your fucking sympathy
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression gonna kill me...

Everybody just get away
I'm gonna boil over inside

They say
They say things
They say things are gonna get better
All I know is they fucking better
Depression is gonna kill me tonight...

...

here's a track to get your point
across if i've ever heard one...

not that this reflects how i
am currently feeling, i will say that,
at times, when i'm in a really bad mood,
horribly low, it feels good to wallow in it
for a minute or maybe 2 minutes and 40 seconds
and commiserate with a really wretched song.

and, if you feel the need to let someone else,
maybe a specific someone else, know how they
are making you feel, what better way to start
the fuck you mix, the you broke my heart mix,
the why won't you pay attention to me mix?

back in my back woods boarding school days,
yes i went to boarding school, i remember
being totally enveloped in confusion over
this one boy from home who i thought
i was in neverending lurve with and he just
continuously fucked with my head. and, because
i was only 14, it seemed like the most important
thing in the world and triggered many nights
of me sobbing in my room, blasting 88 fingers louie
"i hate myself" over and over. after a few repeats
i usually felt better. twisted? whatever,
it worked for me.

dirty projector's website
download depression

a note on SMITTEN

yes... smitten is an odd word. a whole
lot of love and pain wrapped up in
six little letters. i love that
smitten, which originates from the
word smite, is first defined as being struck
by a hard blow, then as grievously or
disastrously stricken or afflicted,
and lastly, this is the best part,
very much in love. therefore? therefore,
being very much in love... is like
being hit really hard and disastrously
afflicted. my aunt did always try to
teach me, that nothing in life was fair,
and to marry for money.

...

SMITE (from dictionary.reference.com)

1. to strike or hit hard, with or as with the hand,
a stick, or other weapon: She smote him on the
back with her umbrella.

2. to deliver or deal (a blow, hit, etc.)
by striking hard.

3. to strike down, injure, or slay:
His sword had smitten thousands.

4. to afflict or attack with deadly or
disastrous effect: smitten by polio.

5. to affect mentally or morally with a
sudden pang: His conscience smote him.

6. to affect suddenly and strongly with a
specified feeling:They were smitten with terror.

7. to impress favorably; charm; enamor:
He was smitten by her charms.

word origin and history

The Blow: "Hey Boy"

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

A. You're gay
B. You've got a girlfriend
C. You kinda thought I came on too strong or
D. I just wasn't your thing
no ring

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

When we sat outside for an hour at the party and talked
I thought something good could be starting
It's not a lot that I want
just some talking
and really, you just injured my pride

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

Susan said that maybe you're scared
Shelly says there always is a reason
and Chris said you're probably surrounded by girls
and I'm just not one of them you're needing

...

so fucking true. i think
almost everyone can relate, even boys.
no, definitely boys.

i was driving in the car with one of my
very good boy friends and we were listening
to the original freelurving double disc mix
i gifted to him. this track was
on the "lurving (-)" disc.
for obvious reasons it didn't
make the "lurving (+)" one.
anyways, when this came on he looked over
and said to me, "that is so true!"
i also love that his name is one of the
ones used, check the lyrics.

it's apparently very easy for boys
to say all the right things...
and then totally ignore you.
i've definitely had it happen to me, and
seen it happen to more than one of my friends.

still catchy and smile provoking track though.

the blow's website
download hey boy

Simian Mobile Disco: "Cruel Intentions" (ft. Beth Ditto from Gossip)

Baby baby baby I don't want to
Ever give you the wrong idea
Call me up we'll hang out I'm down for whatever
Tell me am I making myself clear?
Love can be a meaningless emotion
Pretty words that we're obliged say
Rest assured I won't ask for your complete devotion
Let's not let our hearts get in the way

Whooaaaa finally, the weight is off our shoulders
Play for keeps until the night is over oooh

Now you know of my cruel intentions
I can play a hard game I'll admit
So it goes, we both know
You're worthy of my affection
You're not the one who I'll spend my life with

Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever

Whooaaaa finally, the weight is off our shoulders
Play for keeps until the night is over oooh

Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever

Call me up, we'll hang out
(finally)
Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
(finally)
I'm down for whatever
Until the night is over

Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever

...

perfect follow up to yesterday's
(not so yesterday anymore, apologies
for being a slacker lately) remix.

and, i know i have friends
who know exactly what this song is
all about... yes, you do
and that is more than fine
do what you gotta do

simian mobile disco's website
beth ditto and the gossip's website
download track

Noah and the Whale: "Love of an Orchestra (Nightwaves remix)"

FYI: Noah and the Whale video on top
Nightwaves pic on bottom

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If you gotta run, run from hope

I know I'll never be lonely
I've got songs in my blood
I'm carrying all the love of an orchestra
gimme the love of an orchestra (x3)

So now in my deepest sorrow
there's no need for despair
I'm carrying all the love of an orchestra
gimme the love of an orchestra (x3)

(Choir)
If you gotta run, run from hope

...

reminds me of a crush i
mentioned earlier... while i'm not
sure he carries the love of an orchestra,
i do know he's not lonely when
he's got music and he told me
it was all he had time for. i tell my
friends not to expect to change anyone ever,
so i guess i should follow my own advice
and not chase boys who already told me
they aren't worth chasing.
couldn't help it though, i was/am smitten.

beyond personal rantings,
i am smitten with this song,
especially the video.
for the song writers and
music lovers, here's a love song
for you and for music.

(like the unplanned bettye lavette number in
"on free lurving...", shuffle decided it was
your song's turn to play over all 6,822 choices
in my library. and it sounds like a love song?)

nightwave's website
noah and the whale's website
download love of an orchestra remix

Fleetwood Mac: "Dreams"

Now there you go again
You say you want your freedom
Who am I to keep you down...
It's only right that you should
Play it the way that you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had,
And what you lost
Ooooh, say what you had, you know what you lost

Chorus:
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You will know

Here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself, yeah
It's only me who wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness, like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering
What you had,
And what you lost
Oooh, says what you had, you know what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know

Oh thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
They say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
You will know
Oh oh oh... you'll know

...

looking up at the stars, sharing my
blanket under the night's chill, the dj
played dreams that weekend... now,
whenever i hear it,
i can't help remembering.
i played it on the juke box
just to tell you, neverending boy.

fleetwood mac's website
free download of "dreams"

Passion Pit: "Live to Tell the Tale"

this is the room where we always dreamed
of grass and splendid evenings
emitting frequencies, lost between the
leaves and things
and i held on brightly, crushing quietly
feeling mountains rising out of
make-believe seas, creating typhoons
of feelings not easily made without need

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze,
oh, i know
that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending

the whole slew blossomed beautifully,
and i was beside myself
so i gave into your love
as you rapture asleep, upended
and this is like i have always dreamed:
cobblestone and dusty feet
that's the way it should always be
head over heels and deftly
wonderful and healthy

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze, oh,
i know that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending

i never thought you were here
you've never left me, have you?
you've never left me at all - not once, and i'm sorry i'm such a bore
i'm sorry i am so hard
i swear to god, i'll be good
from now on, and

god bless that smile on your face
god bless the seeds in the ground
god bless my family's keen gaze, oh,
i know that whatever happens to you,
whatever happens to me,
i hope that i'll fall asleep
knowing that you'll always be
the story with no ending

...

i really heard this song for the
first time in my car, like with most songs, and i thought
out loud that this was exactly what i was asking for
when i asked you not to do anything to mess up
my crush on you. not to be a debbie downer,
but it didn't work... it seems to be ending.

but, if you've
(the collective you of potential readers)
found your neverending story,
throw this one on the mix cd.

passion pit's website
download track