Yeasayer: "Red Cave"

I went out past the willow and the well
caught my breath upon the hill
at the edge of the domain and I went down
and further down
and when I got up,
I'm at the red cave

and with that sound
as if I had been put under a spell
she led me to her abode
despite a winter's day

Mary's house in the hollow of the
white hazel rapid whirlpool
and the church of red cave

I'm so blessed to have spent that time
with my family and the friends
I love with my short life I have met
so many people I deeply care for
[repeat]

...
so this is what we do with a
sentimental heart... someone should let
zooey deschanel and m. ward in on
this gem of wisdom.

i am most definitely blessed to have
spent all the time with my family and
amazing friends, and especially the many
random people i have met and shared brief
moments in strange times and distant places with.

like the boy from australia that i met
on the bus on the way home from nyc
on that very cold and windy day and ended
up actually going out with later that week.

or the boy i met at the bus stop in denver
with nowhere to sit and nowhere to find solace
from the hot, hot sun or dust blowing on
my face from the bustling interstate
just a stone's throw away.

or neverending boy, that i am still
reminded of by random glimpses of my freelurving
favorite, "dreams", and other otherwise
insignificant details of my travels.

great great car song. repeated many times
in mine. makes you want to go places,
but reminds you of the people that really
matter most in your life. being somewhat of
a gypsy, i know home is where the heart is,
but these chance meetings are one of
the main things that keep me moving.

yeasayer's website
download "red cave"

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros: "Home" (original and Fromage Disco remix)

sorry for the lack of updates recently, freelurving
has been in cali and without internet connection.
so here's a two in one special for you!

...

[Her:]
Alabama, Arkansas,
I do love my ma and pa,
Not the way that I do love you.

[Him:]
Holy, Moley, me, oh my,
You're the apple of my eye,
Girl I've never loved one like you.

[Her:]
Man oh man you're my best friend,
I scream it to the nothingness,
There ain't nothing that I need.

[Him:]
Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie,
Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ,
Ain't nothing please me more than you.

[Both:]
Ahh Home. Let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

La, la, la, la, take me home.
Mother, I'm coming home.

[Him:]
I'll follow you into the park,
Through the jungle through the dark,
Girl I never loved one like you.

[Her:]
Moats and boats and waterfalls,
Alley-ways and pay phone calls,
I've been everywhere with you.

[Him:]
We laugh until we think we’ll die,
Barefoot on a summer night
Nothin’ new is sweeter than with you

[Her:]
And in the streets you run afree,
Like it's only you and me,
Geeze, you're something to see.

[Both:]
Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

La, la, la, la, take me home.
Daddy, I'm coming home.

(Talking)
Him: Jade
Her: Alexander
Him: Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?
Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me.
Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?
Her: Yes I do.
Him: Well there's something I never told you about that night.
Her: What didn't you tell me?
Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was gonna be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you til just now.

[Both:]
Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is where I'm alone with you.

[Him:]
Home. Let me come home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.

[Her:]
Ahh home. Yes I am ho-oh-ome.
Home is when I'm alone with you.

[Her:]
Alabama, Arkansas,
I do love my ma and pa...
Moats and boats and waterfalls,
Alley-ways and pay phone calls...

[Both:]
Ahh Home. Let me go home.
Home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh Home. Let me go ho-oh-ome.
Home is where I'm alone with you...

...

[me:]
why aren't you ever there when i'm there?

[boy:]
you're never anywhere

[me:]
i'm with you a decent amount of the time.
i'm a gypsy.

and there you have it.
a love song for nomads, gypsies, and others,
who have learned that the allure of home
rests not in the bricks or boards,
the street signs or landmarks,
but with those that you share your being with.
whether that's in the car, la, boston, vermont,
tennessee, on a boat, colorado, whatever.
you'll know it when you find it.

to my you(s),
can't wait to come home.

edward sharpe & the magnetic zeros' website
download original version of home

fromage disco's website
download fromage disco version of home

Crosby, Stills & Nash: "Helplessly Hoping"

two in one special today!
and it's a request... oo la la.

...

helplessly hoping her harlequin hovers nearby
awaiting a word
gasping at glimpses of gentle true spirit
he runs wishing he could fly
only to trip at the sound of good-bye

Wordlessly watching he waits by the window
and wondersat the empty place inside

heartlessly helping himself to her bad dreams he worries
did he hear a good-bye or even

hello

they are one person
they are too alone
they are three together
they are for each other

stand by the stairway you'll see something
certain to tell you
confusion has its cost

love isn't lying it's loose in a lady who lingers
saying she is lost

and choking on hello

they are one person
they are too alone
they are three together
they are for each other

...

"this was the first song i ever had
with a boyfriend and i (also a fan of repeat)
would listen to it on repeat, alone in
my dorm room with the lights off and
the volume on max.

this was the way i always felt about us.
you were me and i was you... not in
time or in space, but in our minds.

ultimately we just wanted to
hold it together, but we couldn't.
i was that lady, lingering,
making you trip over my goodbyes,
but lost myself.

i wish it hadn't gone so sour.
i wish i could still hear your mind in mine,
as friends, still here for each other.

from this relationship what i miss most
is the friendship, but i believe it
lives on in its own space."

my paraphrasation of you know
who you are about the he who
may, or may not, know who he is:

freelurving is a learning experience,
not like learning calculus, but more like
learning first hand how to survive
every single accident covered in the
worst case scenario survival handbook guides...

crosby, stills & nash's website
download helplessly hoping

feeling adventurous?
download anisa hayes' cover of helplessly hoping
and check out anisa hayes on myspace

on repeat: "Skinny Love"

who will love you?
who will fight?
who will be far behind?

...

my brother told me he would
give his leg or foot for my life,
but that he wouldn't want to give
his hand... he's an artist.

later that week i had a dream
and in it there was this man chasing
me, trying to kill me.
eventually he caught me and as i
was pleading for my life, i found myself
asking him to cut my arm off, below the
elbow, attempting to convince him
he didn't actually want to kill me.
i couldn't find my brother.

original post
(for lyrics and download)

José González: "Love Will Tear Us Apart" (Joy Division cover)

two in one special is back!
a little valentine's day present
from freelurving to you.

...

When routine bites hard
And ambitions are low.
And resentment rides high
But emotions won't grow.
And we're changing our ways
Taking different roads.

Then love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed
Every feeling run so dry?
Yet there's still this appeal that
we've kept through our lives.

And love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Do you cry out in your sleep,
All my failings expose?
Gets a taste in my mouth
As desperation takes hold.
Why is it something so good
Just can't function no more?

And Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again...

...

something very catchy about
other side of the bed references.
especially when it's cold.
everyone is always talking about it.
i know i've spent nights crying
about it, days complaining about it...

i cried so many times for you that sometimes
my brother and my dad would ask me why
we were even together. for a long time,
a four and a half year time, and then some,
it was because i really just couldn't help
how much i loved you. no matter what
you did, mostly what you didn't do, i couldn't
stop. many of my tears fell on the nights
i found myself alone, wondering why you weren't
there next to me. i don't cry about you anymore
though, and i think we are both happy
where we are now.

i'd say this is an ideal, repeatable
break(ing)up song. one you can wallow
in, one you can get your point across with,
one you can rock out to once you've come to
terms with it all. whatever works for you.

josé gonzález's website
joy division's website
download joy division version
download josé gonzález version

on repeat: "Depression"

don't know if you're
feeling this one today...
but there is something
very catchy about it to me.

also, another random thought,
how often do you think
david longstreth is alone
now that dirty projectors are
so loved by so many?

so rest easy knowing he
(just an assumption) could
get most girls he wanted and
spends lots of time riding in
his van with the rest of his gang.

original posting
(for lyrics and download)

c'est a ton tour...

have a request?

here's the formula for freelurving success:

the song + what it is that makes
you hit repeat + the moment/person/feeling
it brings you back to + maybe
only the song?? = me being ecstatic that
you requested a song

a note on BITTERSWEET

bitter+sweet makes bittersweet

the bitter being the hard to bear,
the grievous, the resentful,
characterized by intense antagonism or
hostility, and the hard to admit or accept...

think you can stomach that?
i'm having a hard time imagining all that
bitterness packed into one bite ever
going down with ease.

according to the dictionary's
use of bitter as a noun, we are to
learn to take the bitter with the sweet.

ohhh... that's what we're missing?

ok. add a dash of sweet, as in
the pleasing or agreeable, the dear
and beloved, and the easily managed,
and you'll probably have better luck.

we should read the dictionary more often.
us girls could stop wasting so much
time chasing all the bad boys,
letting them catch their breath and
realize a little sweet goes a long way.

like bittersweet chocolate.
both pleasant and painful or regretful.
i could eat that every single day.

read the dictionary
origin of this note

Bon Iver: "Skinny Love"

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

...

i had to listen to this about
ten times the first day i listened
to it. i have a thing for repeat,
but i really had a thing for
repeating this song. very convincing.
he must have gotten really cold
in wisconsin that winter.

not so random side note:
neverending boy once spent a night
out in wisconsin with bon iver.
what he learned from him was
that wisconsin is the place to go
if you want hugs from famous people.
they were supposed to go hunting
together the next day...

bon iver's website
download skinny love

free drinks for freelurving

freelurving enters a new realm today
no longer a teenager, we have 21 songs up!

so here's a little gift from me to you:

download all freelurving tracks mentioned so far
then listen to them all, on repeat.

xo.

on repeat: "Keepsake"

a little dash of
sweetness to balance all
the bitterness below.

bittersweet. yum.

original posting
(for lyrics and download)

Dirty Projectors: "Depression"

disclaimer: not one of the usual in love,
peppy, dancey, freelurving picks.
but everything can't be perfect all
the time, so sometimes you need
one like this.

...

Right here
All by myself
I ain't got nobody else
The situation
The situation is bleeding me there's no relief

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

I ain't got no friends to call my own
I just sit there all alone
There's no girls, there's no girls, there's no girls
that wanna touch me, get away I don't need your fucking sympathy
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression gonna kill me...

Everybody just get away
I'm gonna boil over inside

They say
They say things
They say things are gonna get better
All I know is they fucking better
Depression is gonna kill me tonight...

...

here's a track to get your point
across if i've ever heard one...

not that this reflects how i
am currently feeling, i will say that,
at times, when i'm in a really bad mood,
horribly low, it feels good to wallow in it
for a minute or maybe 2 minutes and 40 seconds
and commiserate with a really wretched song.

and, if you feel the need to let someone else,
maybe a specific someone else, know how they
are making you feel, what better way to start
the fuck you mix, the you broke my heart mix,
the why won't you pay attention to me mix?

back in my back woods boarding school days,
yes i went to boarding school, i remember
being totally enveloped in confusion over
this one boy from home who i thought
i was in neverending lurve with and he just
continuously fucked with my head. and, because
i was only 14, it seemed like the most important
thing in the world and triggered many nights
of me sobbing in my room, blasting 88 fingers louie
"i hate myself" over and over. after a few repeats
i usually felt better. twisted? whatever,
it worked for me.

dirty projector's website
download depression

on repeat: "The Girl"

i want another.
i'm sure i'll get it
eventually... my "love scope"
has been looking good this week.

original posting
(for lyrics and download)

et toi?

what do you want to hear?

let me know and i'll put it up here...
any moment specific, love related,
maybe danceable, and definitely
repeatable tracks welcome!
would love to know your story as well,
but i'll settle for requests in any form

on repeat: "Dreams"

on repeat... dreaming

original posting
(for lyrics and download)

downloads...

a little gift from me to you:

download all freelurving tracks mentioned so far
then listen to them all, on repeat

xo.

City and Colour (Dallas Green): "The Girl"

I wish I could do better by you,
'cause that's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
in order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,
sailing around the world.
Please know that I'm yours to keep,
my beautiful girl.

When you cry a piece of my heart dies,
knowing that I may have been the cause.
If you were to leave,
fulfill someone else's dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

You don't ask for no diamond rings,
no delicate string of pearls.
That's why I wrote this song to sing, my beautiful girl.

Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh

One, two, one two three four
I wish I could do better by you,
'cause it's what you deserve.
You sacrifice so much of your life,
in order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams (my own dreams),
sailing around the world (round the world).
Please know that I'm yours to keep, my beautiful girl.

And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,
knowing that I may have been the cause.
If you were to leave and fulfill someone else's dreams,
I think I might totally be lost.

But you don't ask for no diamond rings (Diamond rings),
No delicate string of pearls (String of pearls).
That's why I wrote this song to sing, my beautiful girl.

Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh oh oh
Ooooo ooo ohhh ohh

But you don't ask for no diamond rings (Diamond rings),
No delicate string of pearls (String of Pearls).
That's why I wrote this song to sing, my beautiful girl.

...

you fooled me for a second,
thinking you wrote this. at least i am aware
of how gullible i can be, and discovered
it was dallas green. nonetheless, my only
facebook message midnight serenade was pretty stellar.
i've watched it on repeat at least a few times. xo.

city and colour's website
download the girl

a note on NEVERENDING

from an email i wrote to a boy:

[[Never ending. Neverending?
Apparently, spell check says not one word,
but I think it looks good as one word.]]

his response was signed:

[[Neverending]]

the dictionary seems to think it should be "never-ending" if it must be one word. and, in my experience, "the never-ending search for hapiness" is the most commonly used phrase provided for never-ending in the dictionary. apparently that is the most common never-ending thing for the majority of our dictionary reading population.

the movie went with "neverending" and i plan to as well.

on free lurving...

i'm a big fan of repeat... i buy movies i've already seen, i eat the same thing for weeks and weeks, i replace kicked sneakers with the same exact make and model, and i love to play songs over and over again, especially in the car. so, almost nothing here will be new, not to me at least, but it will be lovable, for better or for worse.

maybe you'll find the next track for that mix cd you're making for your crush and maybe you'll find you're not the only one feeling the way you feel.

as i'm writing this, bettye levette's "we got to slip around" is playing, and she said exactly that, that you're not the only one to feel this way... while it's about cheating on your man/woman, still, it's the truth.

hopefully you'll find that here. to music.

...

the bettye lavette number was totally unplanned,
and i don't have a copy of it for you to download,
but here is a link for more on her
and to sample the song