Bikini Kill: "Jet Ski"

repeat
he's so not worth it
and you're way too good for him

...

Ain't got no more
No more candy for you
I'm not your rocket ship
Or your motor boat
Your movie set
Or your cartoon show
Not your fucking VCR
Not you avantegard postcard idea
I'm not your oilwell
I'm not your bloodbank
I'm not your bullet proof vest
Or your Visa card
I ain't got no more candy for you
I said I'm not your vacation spot
I'm not your footnote, freakshow
Or your latest cause
I'm not your view to a kill
I'm not your background tune
I'm not the nutty story
That your neighbors been telling to you
I ain't got no candy for you
I said I'm not your oilwell
I'm not your dimestore novel
Or your prison cell
I ain't got no candy for you

...

this made it through my car speakers
about six or more times on my drive
back to portland from my mom's house
after hiding out from heartbreak
for a couple of days

on the way down, i drove in silence
four hours and some minutes of it,
minus some old radio show action
in the last hour... which lost me, quickly
nazis and such, that was the takeaway, bombs

on the way back, a special little lady
told me to blast some music and rock out
or cry or whatever i needed to do
so i decided to do just that

i thought for a while,
what would not turn me into
a gushy ball of heartbroken tears?

bikini kill

then this track came on
in the random playlist of angry girl
goodness

totally did the trick
perfect for the haters
blast it, hate them
love you
(and bikini kill)

the usual:
website / buy it / download
check it / worth it / play it / do it

xo freelurvers



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Hot Chip: "Wrestlers"

hit in the face
still on the floor
why did you have to do it?

...

It's me versus you alone
It's me versus you alone
It's me versus you alone
It's me versus you alone
It's me versus you alone

We'll tag team, double up
Hit you in the sweet spot
And make you wish you'd coughed up

The gloves are off
The gloves are off
It's me, [Incomprehensible] messing round
Taking us a man down

While you've got us on the ropes
We've planned to play the mess around
He's technically trained
You've got him buckled up and he will misbehave

You weigh bigger than a train
But I've got the power and the glory
In my dirty brains

The gloves are off
The gloves are off
So why'd you go and have to fight dirty?
Don't fight dirty, don't hit me with the chair

The gloves are off
So why'd you go and have to fight dirty?
Don't fight dirty, don't bite me in the face
The gloves are off

Now what you gonna do when I come for you
With all that I've got?
I've got a roll of coins, I'm aiming for your loins
And I will never stop

I learned all I know from watching the wrestling
I think you think I'm about to throw the towel in

Here comes Floor Jack
Watch your back, watch your back
He'll charm you with a double-axe
And then he brings the tie attacks
He's not dressed for a cage
He's robed in garments strictly for another age

Here we come, drop kick
Half nelson, full nelson
Willie Nelson, Willie Nelson

Body slam, suplex, headlock, summer-slam, elbow drop
Jelly-flop, cage match, grudge match, snamsno, snamsniey
Alfieley, alscgoboi, nelsonmas allday, skeluas

It's me versus me, versus me, versus me
Versus me, versus me, versus me, versus me, versus me
I learned all I know from watching the wrestling
I think you think I'm about to throw the towel in
Everyone knows Monday night means wrestling

...

i used to listen to this
on repeat, all the time.
i think i listened to it differently
though, until last week...

now, the hit me with the chair
bite me in the face business,
is the part that rings in my ears.
the fight dirty part.

otherwise, it's sort of catchy
and sweet... it's a multi-tasking
type of song.

today, it hurts, too much
and i don't even want to hear it.
but i'll leave it here for you*
who cannot be named.

*everyone gets names, you don't
you'll just be like he-who-must-not-be-named
for now, and then you'll be gone.

check out hot chip's website for more
and spend your money
because it'll sound better once it's yours
than this single will from me

The XX: "Heart Skipped a Beat"

i've only made it through
the first verse...
i don't even want to think
about the second, yet

i'm not finished

...

please don't say we're done

when i'm not finished
i could give you so much more
make you feel, like never before

welcome, they said welcome to the floor

it's been a while
and you've found someone better
but I've been waiting too long to give this up
the more i see, i understand
but sometimes, i still need you

sometimes, i still need you
sometimes, i still need you

i was struggling to get in
left waiting outside your door
i was sure
you'd give me more

no need to come to me
when i can make it all the way to you
you made it clear
you weren't near
near enough for me

heart skipped a beat
and when i caught it you were out of reach
but i'm sure, i'm sure
you've heard it before

heart skipped a beat
and when i caught it you were out of reach
but i'm sure, i'm sure
you've heard it before

...

i'm on the floor
i don't know where he is
i don't even have a name for him, yet

i hate this
(not the xx though)

check out the xx's website
and be nice, buy their music

wallow in it
love to it
do whatever you've got to do

brokelurving

it's funny how freelurving
was really for my "free" lurving times only.
and when i moved across the country,
before i even ended up with a boyfriend,
this whole venture fell off

well, it's back,
now that the boyfriend broke me
i may end up posting
a lot of songs NOT to listen to
when you're broken up with
and completely heartbroken

but, that's probably because they are
songs that you would listen to
when in love...

it's a balancing act

i haven't slept in days,
seven days out and thoroughly
broken hearted and a ball of tears,
so this is all for now

you get a song too, don't worry
and slowly, but surely, there will be more

Giana Factory: "Bloody Game" (Coral Mix)

	Giana Factory - Bloody Game (Coral mix)
	Found at skreemr.com

by popular demand, aka a dedicated
reader, has requested freelurving gets
back on it's feet / sits in front of the
computer again.

(un)fortunately for freelurving,
(un)like giana factory, no one has
opened my chest with a knife,
but i have been a bloody mess.

...

it's a bloody game

you better open my chest with a knife
it's a bloody game

if we should share our lives
you better open my chest with a knife

it's a bloody game

you better open my chest with a knife
it's a bloody game

you should cut up my

...

lurving is a messy sport.
watch your step, and your chest,
and your back, and you head...

whether you're in it to win it or
live by the if you had fun you won
motto, are a blood sucking vampire
or a heartbroken freelurving hater...
maybe just disillusioned or void of
all emotion, and not a hater?
you should rock out to this.

then step away from your computer so
you too can (re)discover that freelurving
inevitably leads to frost bitten feet,
burnt soles, stubbed toes, bruised knees,
bloody chests, stabbed backs,
and bumped heads.

see you in the e.r. freelurvers.

giana factory's website
play original version "bloody game"

download the "bloody game" coral mix
so you can hear this fabtastic track

one of those bettye lavette moments...

let me down easy...

too much to ask?
bettye lavette?

She and Him: "Sentimental Heart"

Cried all night till there was nothin' more
What use am I as a heap on the floor?
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
Takin' it hard just like you knew I would

[CHORUS:]

Oh, oh, old habits die hard
When you got, when you got a sentimental heart
Piece of the puzzle
And you're my missing part
Oh, what can you do with a sentimental heart?
Oh, what can you do with a sentimental heart?

Cried all night till there was nothin' more
What use am I as a heap on the floor?
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
Takin' it hard just like you knew I would

[repeat CHORUS]

What can you do with a sentimental heart?

la, [who-o-o-o-ooo]
la, [who-o-o-o-ooo]
la, [who-o-o-o-ooo]
la, [who-o-o-o-ooo]

...

i've got a sentimental heart.
why else would i write this damn blog?
and, sentimental heart or not, old habits
definitely die hard... if ever.

i could bore with you my endless list
of bad habits, unforgettable moments, and
undeniable feelings that seem to torment me
way past their expiriation date, but i'd
rather just leave with this track and let
zooey deschanel and m. ward do the talking.
music making.

can you say break up mix cd?
because i know this belongs on it.
would go well with this freelurved
track by rose melberg.

oh, and something uplifting.
while sentimental hearts make freelurving
even harder than it otherwise would be...
i'm not giving up, i'll remain a romantic,
continue giving my heart to others,
and keep my finger's crossed that it will
be returned one day. i can only wish
the same optimism for the rest of you.

she and him's (super cute) website
download "sentimental heart"

MSTRKRFT: "Heartbreaker"

first it was easy love,
now it's heartbreaker.
promise there will be an uplifting track tomorrow.

...

Remember when I caught your eye
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness
when our love was over
I was such a mess
I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that's when I knew, there's no turning back
you said you loved me, and I did too
now though it's over, I still love you

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you'd break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day, I pray to god
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another, you had a lover

And now it's gone, I don't know why
I feel like crying, just want to die
I can't look at you, and you know why
no, I tried so hard, to catch your eye

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you'd break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start
[repeat]

...

if this song was playing in the car
nine years ago, i would be saying,
"why did he say he loved me?"
"why was i so stupid to think
he and i could actuually be together?"
"why did i risk friendships for
that one stupid kiss in the hall?"
and lastly, the one that lingered the
longest, "why do i feel so horrible?"

i felt so horrible because it was
the first time i had been in love...
whether what i felt then would be
considered love in my mind today,
i really can't even say. but, it was
the most wonderful and harshest thing
i'd ever felt, usually all at once.

on top of that, i was so young that
boys, my friends, and yeah... boys and
my friends were the two most important things
to me, at the center of my universe,
always on my mind, affecting every decision
i made. so when you told me you didn't
ever love me, that you had always loved her,
and didn't want to see me anymore,
well that was devastating. and when you
later said you wanted me back, i couldn't
have said yes faster, only to be crushed again.
and when you continued to call,
i knew i shouldn't, but i kept listening.
you were one of the hardest people
not to talk to. eventually, i stopped though.
i said never again. no more neverending there.
i haven't forgotten though.

mstrkrft's website
buy "heartbreaker"

Ladytron: "Another Breakfast With You"

my plea for peace...
freelurving not fighting!

...

I don't want to fight
just want a piece of your life
oh, if you come out to play
I don't want you to say...anything
I didn't feel a thing when you told me that
you didn't feel a thing when I told you that
I didn't feel a thing, another breakfast with you

[repeat]

(spoken)
Did you ever fall in love?
for a quarter of an hour or above?

...

reminds me entirely of an ex-boyfriend.

cliche? whatever. i waited and
waited and waited, and he was always late,
or not even there.
breakfast was the worst.
mostly because i wake up ravenous,
and he, well, didn't wake up.

no hard feelings though.
really just the whole breakfast
image that brings me back to those
moments of pacing around wondering,
wtf?! where is he.

ladytron's website
download another breakfast with you

Rose Melberg: "Truly"

joy division, once again
you're right. freelurving hurts.

...

i cried too many times today
what would you say
if you knew
how truly i love you

come here better to hear me sing
forget everything
how i made you cry

ooo-ooo-ooo-ooo-ooo
ooooo-ooo-ooo-ooooo

i cried too many times today

...

sorry for another not so uplifting
tune, but, the only way to get over
it is to get through it...

maybe you can use this one on
the hello, i love you mix,
or the come home i miss you mix
for your special someone that might not
realize how special they really are
and needs some reminding.

i was having lunch the other day and my
friend and i were talking about that
terrible cry yourself to sleep lurving
feeling that we don't think our former
flames ever realized they induced,
much less shared.

did you guys?
or are we right?

rose melberg's website
download truly

José González: "Love Will Tear Us Apart" (Joy Division cover)

two in one special is back!
a little valentine's day present
from freelurving to you.

...

When routine bites hard
And ambitions are low.
And resentment rides high
But emotions won't grow.
And we're changing our ways
Taking different roads.

Then love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed
Every feeling run so dry?
Yet there's still this appeal that
we've kept through our lives.

And love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Do you cry out in your sleep,
All my failings expose?
Gets a taste in my mouth
As desperation takes hold.
Why is it something so good
Just can't function no more?

And Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again...

...

something very catchy about
other side of the bed references.
especially when it's cold.
everyone is always talking about it.
i know i've spent nights crying
about it, days complaining about it...

i cried so many times for you that sometimes
my brother and my dad would ask me why
we were even together. for a long time,
a four and a half year time, and then some,
it was because i really just couldn't help
how much i loved you. no matter what
you did, mostly what you didn't do, i couldn't
stop. many of my tears fell on the nights
i found myself alone, wondering why you weren't
there next to me. i don't cry about you anymore
though, and i think we are both happy
where we are now.

i'd say this is an ideal, repeatable
break(ing)up song. one you can wallow
in, one you can get your point across with,
one you can rock out to once you've come to
terms with it all. whatever works for you.

josé gonzález's website
joy division's website
download joy division version
download josé gonzález version

on repeat: "Depression"

don't know if you're
feeling this one today...
but there is something
very catchy about it to me.

also, another random thought,
how often do you think
david longstreth is alone
now that dirty projectors are
so loved by so many?

so rest easy knowing he
(just an assumption) could
get most girls he wanted and
spends lots of time riding in
his van with the rest of his gang.

original posting
(for lyrics and download)

Dirty Projectors: "Depression"

disclaimer: not one of the usual in love,
peppy, dancey, freelurving picks.
but everything can't be perfect all
the time, so sometimes you need
one like this.

...

Right here
All by myself
I ain't got nobody else
The situation
The situation is bleeding me there's no relief

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

I ain't got no friends to call my own
I just sit there all alone
There's no girls, there's no girls, there's no girls
that wanna touch me, get away I don't need your fucking sympathy
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.

Depression , Depression
Depression is gonna kill me tonight.
Depression , Depression
Depression gonna kill me...

Everybody just get away
I'm gonna boil over inside

They say
They say things
They say things are gonna get better
All I know is they fucking better
Depression is gonna kill me tonight...

...

here's a track to get your point
across if i've ever heard one...

not that this reflects how i
am currently feeling, i will say that,
at times, when i'm in a really bad mood,
horribly low, it feels good to wallow in it
for a minute or maybe 2 minutes and 40 seconds
and commiserate with a really wretched song.

and, if you feel the need to let someone else,
maybe a specific someone else, know how they
are making you feel, what better way to start
the fuck you mix, the you broke my heart mix,
the why won't you pay attention to me mix?

back in my back woods boarding school days,
yes i went to boarding school, i remember
being totally enveloped in confusion over
this one boy from home who i thought
i was in neverending lurve with and he just
continuously fucked with my head. and, because
i was only 14, it seemed like the most important
thing in the world and triggered many nights
of me sobbing in my room, blasting 88 fingers louie
"i hate myself" over and over. after a few repeats
i usually felt better. twisted? whatever,
it worked for me.

dirty projector's website
download depression

The Blow: "Hey Boy"

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

A. You're gay
B. You've got a girlfriend
C. You kinda thought I came on too strong or
D. I just wasn't your thing
no ring

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

When we sat outside for an hour at the party and talked
I thought something good could be starting
It's not a lot that I want
just some talking
and really, you just injured my pride

Hey Boy
Why you didn't call me?
I waited for days
I can't believe you didn't call

Susan said that maybe you're scared
Shelly says there always is a reason
and Chris said you're probably surrounded by girls
and I'm just not one of them you're needing

...

so fucking true. i think
almost everyone can relate, even boys.
no, definitely boys.

i was driving in the car with one of my
very good boy friends and we were listening
to the original freelurving double disc mix
i gifted to him. this track was
on the "lurving (-)" disc.
for obvious reasons it didn't
make the "lurving (+)" one.
anyways, when this came on he looked over
and said to me, "that is so true!"
i also love that his name is one of the
ones used, check the lyrics.

it's apparently very easy for boys
to say all the right things...
and then totally ignore you.
i've definitely had it happen to me, and
seen it happen to more than one of my friends.

still catchy and smile provoking track though.

the blow's website
download hey boy

ESG: "You're No Good"

baby, you really need ya
baby, you really want ya
baby, you really love ya
and baby, you really hold ya

chorus:
but you're no good, (you're no good)
you're no good, (you're no good)
you are no good, (you're no good)
you're no good, (you're no good)
ooooo

i said baby, you better need ya
i said baby, you better want ya
you really love ya, love ya, love ya
you better baby

chorus

you better need ya, (yeah)
you better want ya, (yeah)
you better love you, (yeah)
you better want you, (yeah)
you better love you, love you, love you, love you,
love you, love you, love you

uhhh i said baby,
you better need ya
baby, you better want ya
you made me love you, love you, love you, love you
(you better baby)
chorus

...

a little juxtaposition here,
a break from the mushy songs...
for the ones you love to love
and that love to love themselves

you know those boys
(applies to girls too)
that so obviously love themselves?
whether it's a cover for other
insecurities or just a serious
ego maniacal thing, it doesn't leave
much room for them to love
anything else... especially not you.
well, they really are "no good"
so forget about it

(closest thing to) esg's website
download "you're no good" for frees